No, this is not about no tears for Kaiden....it's a big mommy moment step for me!! The past several months.....ok well basically since K was diagnosed I always get SUPER emotional when I talk to people about Kaiden. No, not because I am embarrased. I am FAR from that because I think my son is just about the most awesome kid there is. Not only does he grow and learn everyday but he works harder than any kid I know. Ok, back to my moment.....
Kaiden and I were at lunch with Bert and his boys on Sunday. (Bert is my boyfriend, only K calls him Dert because he can't say his D's:) ) It's pretty cute! At the restaurant there was a slide that all the kids play on before their meal is ready. Well K is a pro at it. So he goes 90 mph climbing the stairs and going down. He wasn't quite understanding the reasoning for not standing in a certain spot that the waitress didn't want him to stand in. Sooooooo, here comes waitress to our table. Now, I see all this happening and to me it wasn't a big deal so I didn't intervene. As she is walking my way I get up and head that way. She stops me and says "I'm trying to tell him to not stand there but he acts like he doesn't want to listen." I say "It's ok, he is autistic so it's not because he's trying to be ugly, you just have to know how to talk to him and get his attention" Now, a month ago I probably would have gone to the bathroom and cried. There is another instance that happened that day that also would have caused me to cry that I won't go into detail about....... but I held it together!
Crying in public??? Ain't nobody got time for that!!!
No, I am not saying there is anything wrong with crying. BELIEVE ME I do it ALL the time, at times I think that is what keeps me sane.
I was at church on Sunday and someone said that their son was delayed in some areas and I told her about our story. She said "No way, I would have never known". That made me think of a quote I saw the other day :
"Autism, is part of my child, it's not everything he is. My child is so much more than a diagnosis.”
It's so true. This kid is my world. He loves to love. He loves to laugh. He loves to wrestle, sing, dance, talk, run, play, go for walks, rides and trips. He is a kid, a normal 3 year old kid who just happens to see things a little differently than we do. But you know what, he is 100% happy and content and that is ALL I can ask for. He is still kicking autism's butt and will overcome with the help of his family, those who love him and most importantly our Creator, for He is the ONLY one who knows what is in store for Kaiden.
Thank you Lord for this amazing gift you have given me, I will continue to love him with all of my heart.
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
New year, new routine.
Goodbye 2012. So much happened, good, bad, ugly, but a whole lot of positive. First and foremost, my Mama kicked cancer's ass. Yes Mom, I said ass. There was a time there where Satan was working overtime but with her faith, our family's faith, our friends' faith, the Lord and Mom won the battle.
Secondly, ( I don't think I like that word but it fits here) Kaiden won. He can now communicate everyday with us and is a boy. A three year old boy. A boy that plays non stop, a boy that does not even let this autism stuff stand in his way. There are days that go by that I never see one "symptom". Don't get me wrong, there are days where I want to punch autism in the face if it had one. But, over the course of a year, he has defied the odds, just like I said he would. He never gave up, yes he's only three and didn't really have an option because we never gave up. Four days a week going to therapy and multiple hours of it at home. Thousands of miles driven, thousands of dollars spent, thousands of tears cried. But worth them all.
2012 also brought renewed relationships and renewed faith. At church one morning I threw away the key of holding a grudge (literally had a key that the pastor gave us and left it at the altar). From that day on, life has been so much easier. So much better for our family. It is possible for parents and step parents or whatever you want to call it to get along. It may not be easy at first (we could tell many stories) but prayer works wonders. I pray all the time. I pray before going to bed, when I wake up, in the shower, before I walk into a new situation, in the middle of lunch duty.......the answers may not always be what we want to hear but He hears them and leads us in the direction we need to go. I get the praying from my mama and her mama:)
My best friend lost her sweet baby boy in 2012 and almost lost her father. I sat with her last night as the ball was dropping and she said "2013 has to be a better year". She has taught me more than she will EVER know. I held her hand as she went through the worst day of her life and now in 2013 she will welcome a sweet baby boy.
Kaiden will now go to the UNT center four days a week. One day for speech therapy and the other three for his ABA therapy. It's so nice to have a consistent schedule that is so close to home. I hated having him in the car for hours going to and from therapy. Insurance will work in our benefit (until September) and we will not have to pay a dime in just a couple of months!
Christmas is all packed up here at the Mommy and Kaiden house and we have to wait another year for the "most wonderful time of the year". Kind of seems like the fast forward button was hit during the holidays.
The end of 2012 brought me unexpected happiness and I cannot wait to see what 2013 has in store.
I love you all, and whether you know it or not, you have touched my life and I am so thankful to have you in it. That was a lot of you's in one sentence:)
Secondly, ( I don't think I like that word but it fits here) Kaiden won. He can now communicate everyday with us and is a boy. A three year old boy. A boy that plays non stop, a boy that does not even let this autism stuff stand in his way. There are days that go by that I never see one "symptom". Don't get me wrong, there are days where I want to punch autism in the face if it had one. But, over the course of a year, he has defied the odds, just like I said he would. He never gave up, yes he's only three and didn't really have an option because we never gave up. Four days a week going to therapy and multiple hours of it at home. Thousands of miles driven, thousands of dollars spent, thousands of tears cried. But worth them all.
2012 also brought renewed relationships and renewed faith. At church one morning I threw away the key of holding a grudge (literally had a key that the pastor gave us and left it at the altar). From that day on, life has been so much easier. So much better for our family. It is possible for parents and step parents or whatever you want to call it to get along. It may not be easy at first (we could tell many stories) but prayer works wonders. I pray all the time. I pray before going to bed, when I wake up, in the shower, before I walk into a new situation, in the middle of lunch duty.......the answers may not always be what we want to hear but He hears them and leads us in the direction we need to go. I get the praying from my mama and her mama:)
My best friend lost her sweet baby boy in 2012 and almost lost her father. I sat with her last night as the ball was dropping and she said "2013 has to be a better year". She has taught me more than she will EVER know. I held her hand as she went through the worst day of her life and now in 2013 she will welcome a sweet baby boy.
Kaiden will now go to the UNT center four days a week. One day for speech therapy and the other three for his ABA therapy. It's so nice to have a consistent schedule that is so close to home. I hated having him in the car for hours going to and from therapy. Insurance will work in our benefit (until September) and we will not have to pay a dime in just a couple of months!
Christmas is all packed up here at the Mommy and Kaiden house and we have to wait another year for the "most wonderful time of the year". Kind of seems like the fast forward button was hit during the holidays.
The end of 2012 brought me unexpected happiness and I cannot wait to see what 2013 has in store.
I love you all, and whether you know it or not, you have touched my life and I am so thankful to have you in it. That was a lot of you's in one sentence:)
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