People tell me I'm lucky if I have a day without him. Shut your mouth. I would choose having him every. single. day. I would choose not having a social life or any free time. But, I am so blessed and thankful that he has a second home that is filled with love. I literally couldn't ask for a better dad and step mom for him.
I can't believe that I have been a mother for 3.5 years. Doesn't even seem possible. These 3.5 years have been filled with happy, sad, frustrating, confusing, emotional, love filled days. I can remember the days that I longed for him to say my name, then he did but could only say it with an N, then finally the real deal. Besides the day I gave birth to him that was the best day of my life. I love driving him to and from therapy, sitting in the waiting room for an hour each time, researching ways to help him, finding new healthy foods, doing the bizarre things other warrior mothers do. The hours spent worrying, miles spent driving, money spent on gas and therapies, hours spent on the phone with insurance, drs, planning our next step so that it doesn't throw him for a loop, surrouding him with things that make him happy, scheduling.... make it all worth it when he smiles and laughs at the simple things in life.
The love he has for me makes me love him even more. I used to say, I don't think I could ever be a stay at home mom. I have changed my mind. I literally want to spend every day with him. I'm sure you are thinking, you are so weird. No, I'm obsessed with my child and I don't care. What mother isn't?
Kaiden Scott Woltman, you have no idea what you have done for me. You have shown me what true love is. You have shown me patience. You have shown me how to fight for you. You have shown me how to stand up for myself when others may have opinions about things I do. You have changed my life and I will thank my God every day.
