Thursday, May 29, 2014

Changes

Next week we will say "goodbye" to two of the most important people in Kaiden's progress. Three years ago, almost to the day, I was in the hallway at school taking down my bulletin board for the year. One of my coworkers, Randy, who at that time worked as a facilitator for an autistic student in fourth grade was talking to me about his plans after the school year was finished.  He and his wife run an in home day care and it just so happened that our babysitter was moving. Total God thing. Later that week we went and visited the Roses house and fell in love.  We let them know about Kaiden's needs and not once did they hesitate. On top of that, over the next two years they let numerous strangers  (therapists) into their home on a daily basis to work with Kaiden, prepared his gluten free meals, wrote in his notebook and taught him things that I am in awe of.  Their patience, love for Kaiden and daily prayer for him will never be forgotten. They changed both of our lives and I cannot thank them enough.  We love you Leesa and Randy.

Kaiden will take the summer off from school and  start PreK in the fall. This makes my mommy heart sad, but he will be at his new school with three of my very close friends so I know he will be safe and loved. He will continue with therapies twice a week at the autism center in Denton.


I don't handle change well, but I guess it's time that I start.

Saturday, May 10, 2014

That time I became a mother.....

It literally seems like yesterday.  I was sitting in a wedding and all of the sudden the most intense pain I've ever had shot up through my back.  And of course I was about four rows to the front.  I can't remember if we made it through the entire wedding but the next thing I remember is pulling into a Pizza Hut and was 99% sure I was about to birth my son in the parking lot.  Well Denton Presbyterian hospital made me feel like a moron, doped me up on some ambien and sent me home with my Braxton hicks contractions........uh no. Mommy don't play no games. Two days later I was back.  At that moment I was told no more working and to "take it easy".... What does that even mean?   When my body was done faking me out and the real deal was ready to take place my body then thought it would be SUPER cool to not respond to the epidural.  So I gave birth with only my left leg numb.  I remember yelling at Dr Walsh to "get him out of me"....and to "give me a c section"by far one of my classiest moments.  Listen giving birth naturally is no joke. I do remember a couple of hours later AFTER the pain meds wore off, thinking to myself that it was totally worth the pain and that this little boy was mine.  He seriously came from my body and was here with me to do life with.   At that moment I had no idea exactly how much that little, tiny, precious, black headed boy would completely change my life.

As mothers we are constantly learning.  Learning just how much we can mess things up, learning how to do things right and everything in between.  So, here is my top 10 list of things I have learned since becoming a mother:

1. Listen to your heart.  Always.  Yes, people always have their opinion of what you are doing right or wrong but you are the only person who knows your child inside and out.....and you are the one is constantly thinking about their next move consciously and even when you don't know you are.

2. It's going to be messy.  Like straight up poop in your fingernails messy.

3. Laugh.  Trust me, you won't survive if you don't.  You cannot take life too seriously.

4.  Accept help.  This one took me a while.

5. Kiss them, hold them, smell their baby smell hair.  Like multiple times a day.  Oh and rock them until they tell you they don't want to be.

6.  let them experience new things all the time.  This is one factor in Kaiden's growth that I think helped him tremendously.

7.  You'll sleep when you're dead,  or at least that is what my dad says.  I think I'm still catching up on sleep for when Kaiden's went through the "sleep is lame" phase

8. Pray

9. Pray more.

10.  Thank God for the blessing he has given you because in the blink of an eye it could be gone.